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     hmmm…… how should i say? welcome back to my self? hehehe that’s a bad habit of me… laziness. kalu rajin… aku update le blog, kalu malas.. berbulan-bulan x update.
    Where to start… as i remembered, the last time i posted somethin here bout 3 month ago.. sedar² dah masuk bln ramadhan. hahahah somethin great  as i expected from my self.
    Dalam masa 3 bulan ni sebnarnye too many things happened around me, a lot of good things as well as bad things. well that’s a circulation of life, dh ditntukn ngn Qada’ & Qadar. & i already realized it..

    Ngan good things dulu la, kalu mula ngn bad things kang yg bagus tu pun turn out jd moody. alhamdulillah… bisnes aku mkin ada improvement & aku pn skang tgh wat part time jd technician pc kt sek². so, bley le cover sket² apa² yg patut.
    kedai aku skng pn dah tmbah pc, total sumer skali dlm 5 pc, & pasni maybe akn wat renovation lak… syukur pd Allah…
    apa lg good things nye… arghh lupe la plak… demn!

hmm.. start to be moody… :<
       actually, benda yg aku wat skg ni langsung x dpt sokongn ayah aku… apa yg disumbangknnye only kata² pedas yg bleh membunuh kalu x tahan telinga. heh… mujur le aku wat pekak je ari tu… :>
    aku x niat nk lwn dia ke apa ke, cume… ye la… maybe tindakn dia hantar aku kat nenek suh jaga dr kecik smpai besar & then treat me like a stranger, communication out… what will u expect..? pd aku such things he did in the past really a big mistake, a good parents should take care of their child  by their own… bukan apa, anak² bile dh besar akn ingt apa yg diorang dpt…
    deep dlm ati aku mmg, ikhlas aku ckp aku quite dissapointed ngn ayah aku, but i never really meant to treat him like i hate him… cume ini le lesson yg patut aku ambik.. for myself i guess?
    that’s why kekadang tu aku rs berat nk balik kg…. cam kene exile le plak yek :)… bkan pe.. aku x suka kena leter, malas nk pening kn kpala…

    raya ni pn cam malas nk balik, maybe aku akn balik at the first day hari raya nnti kut, bkn pe, kalu aku balik awai pn, ayah aku for sure duk berkurung dlm bilik, pastu… ada lg le mcm² perkara yg annoying yg aku pn x reti camne nk describe kt sini… kalu raya pertamanye plak, biasanya aku balik je dr sembhyang, bru je niat nk g salam ngn mak ayah… tgok² awai² lagi dh lesap… tak tau g ke mana… :< tu yg wat aku semacam tuh :<

    hoh emos le plak… mau x emos… tgh tulis blog smbil layan OST Heart -My heart instrumental version-… layan abis…

bkn pe, umo at 25 ni aku dh malas nk layan lagu pening², aku lagi suka instrumental slow songs.. yg leh wat otak aku tenang… layan lagu jap